A time to laugh and a time to cry,,,,,
I couldn’t for the life of me think what to write about this week, usually, my topics just pour out all over the page and I can think of millions of things to write about, but, today was not one of those days……
Today, was one of those days, that thankfully don’t happen too often in my calendar. I felt lost and hormonal, I felt sad and the overwhelming feeling of almost finishing something, but not quite.
Of having the end in sight but then running out of steam while at the same time feeling the huge burden of the life you have somehow managed to keep on track. It is the realization of “I can’t believe I can do this..” and, as if this is not difficult enough, then we have a huge array of enlightening, wise and wonderful sayings that are supposed to encourage us during this time. “You only get what you can handle.” , “This time of difficulty will bring much character”, or, “The darkest hour is before dawn.”
Well, can I just tell you…that I must have had the personality of a dead rabbit or maybe I was as interesting as pancake mix before it hits the griddle or simply put maybe I am just plain “beige”, waiting for that splash of colour to open the curtains on this stage of my life for me to realize that “Ahhhhhhhhhh yes, it is true, you only get what you can handle and Wow!
I have so much more character now….etc,etc. Sometimes, you don’t want the words of wisdom or the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes, you just want to have a big , messy, gushy wet and icky cry. Just let it all hang out and then, after a little bit of powder to the nose you feel so much better.
It is proven that certain chemicals are released in the brain ONLY when one cries. These chemicals set about to relax and soothe you, so yes, crying is a hugely beneficial health response to a situation. So, next time, if you see me crying in aisle 5 at IGA, just know, that I still can’t find the kidney beans I was looking for, and that I need to cry right now. I’ve always said its (the emotion!) better out than in…- (If only it was that simple!!)